when i re.started this blog i was in the very beginning stages of emerging from a pretty dark time. i was trying to grasp at anything to appear "okay" but i wasnt. yet. me now versus me then is a stark contrast & then "me now" needs to let go of all of the "me then" including this blog. after months of thinking about it, changing my mind, making my mind up, changing my mind again, i have decided to close this blog & start a new one.
p.s. this blog will close permanently on aug. 15.